I just needed to write something..no title needed.

What must it take to not have to think about you anymore? I've tried ten times over and the result is always the same. I can't help but be drawn back to you. Maybe it's your eyes, your lips, or even your body. No, it's much more than that. It's not just sexual attraction, although you're one of the most beautiful girls I've ever laid my eyes upon. There is something else about you that has me racking my brain inside and out. I don't know if your words are trickery or if you really mean what you say. One night it seems too good to be true while the next is as if nothing ever happened. When I dream, I dream of you. When I'm awake, I'm thinking of you.

It's infuriating if you really think about it. I can ask myself a thousand times "Why?" and never have an exact answer. I play it over like a broken record, why I can't be the one for you, why does it have to be them? Do I not make you laugh as much as they do? Do I not show you how much you mean to me? Or is it just that, too much "I" and not enough "you." Heh, either way it probably doesn't make a difference. I should have known from the start that falling in love with you was a mistake. I can't even bring myself to call it a mistake, that's how much I care about you. As much pain as you cause me I wouldn't trade it for anything else. At least...at least it's my pain.

Maybe one day I'll learn to let go, but for now it seems as if I'll carry this burden for awhile. You probably know exactly how I feel and still ignore it. I could be angry at you, at the same time I can't blame you. I love you for who you are and I wish every night I had the guts to tell you that. I want to ask you a single question except I'm scared of the answer, scared that you'll say the very thing I don't want to hear even though every action you make already answers it. So I'll sit and talk to you, I'll love you despite the fact you ignore what I have to give, and I'll hold on to your place in my heart until the very last piece crumbles away because that is how I've built my heart around you.