Just needed to write some more.

You're such a sad person you know that? While you're down in the dumps there is someone who is living their life as if there is no tomorrow. Why aren't you? Nothing has changed, it's the same shit every single day. As much happiness as they bring you it's still not enough. You need something more, you need something that defines you. Maybe you've already found that but in my eyes you're still a nobody. In my eyes you're weak because you won't be the person you're supposed to be. I see so much want in you it's exhausting. The want to succeed, the want to be someone important, the want to know what it's like to feel anothers embrace as if you were the only person who mattered. Think about it, isn't it overwhelming? Doesn't it hurt knowing you haven't done any of this? It's just not what you "want" it's what you need as well. The need to be important.

Let's be honest here, you're not that important. If you were to leave here tomorrow, other than your family how many others would be deeply affected by your passing? Or maybe I'm being too hard on you. Maybe you are more important than you know. Too bad you don't believe that, even though there is a high possibility that it's true. You've heard people say it, but they're so far away it's almost deafening, so far out of reach that those words are few and far between. Give it time and you will see whether or not they care for you as much as you them.

It's a shame what a persons mind will go through when they're alone. Some people are able to thrive on it, and in some ways you do. In more ways than one you have this problem. Connection, what a strange word. You don't get pissed off like a regular person, hell you can't even hide it when it's all over your face. You just say "fuck it" and move on cause that's how your brain is wired. It's hard to change that type of mind-set when you've been like that for so long. Do you care so little or too much that you don't know how to express it? Either way it's fucking up the type of person you are.

Wander around in the depths of your mind and unlock the doors to uncover this illicit facade you put on every single day while everyone thinks your okay. You're not okay. You're not the person who you want to be. I challenge you to find that person.

Look up, look in the mirror, I am you. Find me.