I Am...

I lie awake at night: sleepless, alone, and cold. Searching the depths of my dark mind. Putting together a puzzle of misery. Always searching for that dim light of hope. Few and far between does it come.

When it’s there, in front of your face. Will you even recognize it? Probably not. See, the thing is, the darkness has it’s claws sunk in as deep as they can go. It wants you to bleed, too hurt as much as possible. It laughs when you’re down, it screams of joy ring through the stale dark night.

Oh, how it’s so suffocating. I can barely breathe, it’s finally winning. I have succumbed to its will. These chains tear me to the ground as if they’re apart of my very being. The soul is black, once full of life, once full of hope. Never again, too far gone now. There’s no one to save me. I can’t even save myself.

You’ve done it, you’ve taken away every piece of me. Aspirations? There are none. Friends? They stopped caring. Family? No one to listen. Darkness, you sure are a clever creature, I give you that. What was once my strengths, you’ve managed to rip away from me.

I am no longer myself, I am a silhouette of nothingness. I am unrecognizable.

Take that grin off of your face, you’re so selfish. You’re all the things that aren’t meant to be. Yet, you’re here, in plain site.

There’s no escaping, is there? You’ve got a hold of me, and won’t let go. To cry is pointless, stand up to fight and your chains bring me crashing to the ground. Should I give up? No, not just yet. Even with all this darkness around me, there is something that drives within. Come out. Show yourself.

I have no name, I am the loner, I am suffering.

I am the light that fights back each day even when there is nothing but darkness. Really, that little dim of light, is shining through. I am the light that climbs through the depths of that dark mind to show everything you’re not. Because, dear friend Darkness. I am not you.

You may have me by the chains, but you shall never truly take hold of me.