I Could Dream Forever

Last night I closed my eyes and dreamed of you. Even now I can still see you turning towards me with those heart gripping brown eyes. Flashing your smile that brings out the most primal feelings within me. Oh, you are a sight to behold. Your hand gently caressing my face sent chills down my spine. My heart raced. You whispered into my ear.

"Walk with me," she said.

You lead me outside, down a path I've never seen before. It was dark, but I felt like I could see everything ever so clearly. Your pace was quicker than mine, never out of reach, never rushing. It was as if time didn't matter. I became entranced, I lost count of how far we had walked until there was a light peaking through up ahead. You turned towards me.

"We're here," she smiled.

My chest tightened. It was hard to breathe. You grabbed my hand, pulling me along. I wanted to clench your hand and pull you towards me but I couldn't. Something was preventing me. You stared back with a puzzled look. You said something. I couldn't make it out. Your smile begins to fade. I see it in your face. Your losing hope. You want me to come with you. I stare back, but with no expression. I want to go with you. I really do.

"I'm sorry," I say.

You stepped forward grabbed my hand again and kissed my cheek.

"Come on!" she exclaimed.

I start walking with her now. The tightness in my chest is still there. Apprehension, maybe. Excitement. I still don't know. Almost out of a movie, the light dissipates into a serene beach environment. The water crystal blue. The sun gleaming down with no cloud in sight. The temperature just right. I looked back at her. Your back was turned away from me. You were walking towards a house that what seemed to have appeared out of nowhere.

"Where are we?" I asked.

You didn't answer. After a few seconds I started following you again. You had already reached the steps when you looked at me and smiled. You opened the door and walked in. I quickened my pace not wanting to lose sight of you. I walked into the house where you were nowhere to be found. This place looked familiar. Though I was fairly sure I had never been here before. I called out to you but there was no answer. I started wandering through the house. There were pictures on the wall of you. As a child, one with your mother, another with your siblings. So full of life.

I just stood there for the longest time staring at these pictures. I felt your hand gently rest on the back of my shoulder, pulling me to turn towards you. There was no smile. The look in your eyes was so intense. You stepped within inches of me. Not uttering a single word leaned towards me and our lips touched. My heart raced. I pushed the hair out of your face.

"I want you to stay with me, please, don't leave me again" I pleaded.

You tried looking away but I wouldn't let you. I needed you to say something. Anything. When our eyes met I could see the tears begin to fall. I pulled you closer towards me. Your head propped against my shoulder.

"We have something that no one else has. We want to be with each other. We miss each other when we're gone. So why is it so hard for us? Why do we continue hurting each other?" she asked.

I had no answer. You were right, after all. I loved you like no other. All we've done is hurt each other. This was our chance, though. We could be together. Nothing was stopping us. Nothing. Yet we were both so hesitant.

"I love you," she said.

My heart must have stopped for a moment in time, "I love you too." I replied.

As I leaned in to kiss her everything went black. You were gone. I was alone again.

Light started trickling through I finally realized what was happening. It was a dream all along. I was fully awake now. The feelings I had was painstakingly still there. Reality had sunk in.

Dreams were the only place I could go to see your beautiful face anymore. Damn girl, I'm finally forced to face the truth.

If only I could dream forever, I'd dream of you.